grrr tiger

So today didnt go too hot with the doctors:( You know the feeling of the rug getting pulled out from underneath your feet? welp that happened ONCE again today! Turns out the doctors think that my son is severly delayed on his motor skills, that there is a problem nurolgy, and that he is most likely going to be handicap! This was shock to hear because i though he was doing so well, but once they started to point things out that was wrong it was like they popped my bubble...it took EVERYTHING i had not to break down untill i got into the car! I know that no matter what im still going to love my son and that we will get through it but it have people CONSTINTLY telling you that your son has a rough road ahead of him and ALWAYS getting bad news...it takes a toll on a person, ecspecialy a mommy. i cant help but think of the future struggles..i want the best for him!!! i just want to scream. Everyone is telling me that things are going to be okay and to have faith and im greatful and i agree but i just want to break down!!!!!sometimes people just need to realize that yes things are going to be okay but right now, this moment, my heart is breaking, just let it break! it will mend and make me stronger, but i need to cry!

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Hey All

welp im back! im actually staying at my inlaws for a few days because of the heat in our house isnt working, my husband told me today that there was actual FROST on the inside of our windows! I think that jack frost needs to rest alittle dont you?! Being down here has been great but i miss my husband more than anything:( its not like i am in another state..seriously its only 1hr away but i realize what i take for granted when we are together...like sitting on the couch cozyed up, watching him interact with his son, Him calling me his baby, and yes i even miss him stealing the covers!! He is my world..Along with the Lord and my child but you know what i mean! i just wish he was here:(

Also i am supposed to start a bible study tomorrow but that doesnt look like its going to happen...big boy has a physical therapy apointment which i totally blanked on until i checked my messages tonight. His last apointment (3months ago) took alot out of him, i swear they expect him to do flips or something, so im just gonna be praying with him in the morning..i feel like im flaking out but i know that im doing the right thing...i struggled with what to do for a few hours tonight, Becasue this bible study I REALLY WANT TO GO TO AND COMMIT too! But i know its going to be a trying day for my son and welp he over rules what i want, but i will do the study and talk it over with B, if she wants too...and now im rambling...im going to go to bed and hopefully sleep a few hours, that would be grand!

Blog for B

SO i have made it a goal to get on here and to type a blog, even though its going to be short because my lil man needs a bath! anywho things in the new year has no doubt been stressfull but im way excited to see what it has instore! I just joined a Bunko club with ladies from my church which is exciting! i have been wanting to get to know the ladies better and hopfully this will be a tool to help! Also I am in a bible study for marriage at B's church! I have been involved in one other Bible study from there and it really lifted my spirits and i know that this one will do the same! My soul has been starven for some Lord time:) Well i PROMISE i will be back on here THIS week! Sorry to cut this short but i have some things to do and a baby to clean!
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