Broken

How many times can one persons heart break i wonder? How many times can my heart go through this? Michael had his first full blown paralization today...he couldn't sit up, could really move...just twitch for 3 hours...then a seizure...then another seizure...then he was fine and happy...then a seizure again...and now has really labored breathing...i know Gods hand is in this somewhere im just so tired of hurting...and so tired of watching my son go through this