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So i really dont know how i should titlethis so im just going to leave it blank.

When i woke up this morning, i would have never guess that tonight would end up so emotional and convicting for me. Its just sad that it took a friend's misfortune and positive life radio to help me to come realize some things.

This is hard for me to type because i honestly dont like to admit my mistakes and emotions to people, most of the time i try to pretend like nothing is wrong but what is that solving?...NOTHING. So this blog is going to be a reminder on what i, Heidi, need to work on.

1) Being judgmental....Tonight i was talking to a friend about T.V. Christians.. you know what im talking about...the Christians on T.V. shows like "wife swap" that are so far out there in left Field that it gives us Christians a bad name...as we were going on about how we hate about how people get their guards up with us when they learn that we walk with the Lord that it hit me..Us Christians....well, I do, i can't speak for everyone else..do just the same. I honestly have stopped talking to people once i found out that they were huge drinkers, or that they dont believe in the Lord, or even if they look Gothic..i probably wouldn't really make an effort to get to know them. What kind of message does that send to non believers? Im lucky that i had found my way to the Lord but just because i have doesnt make me any better than the next person. I sin. You sin. we all sin. The only perfect one is God himself. What i am trying to say is that i can love the sinner but hate the sin. Just because they do something doesnt mean im going to do it. Im a grown woman and i know the difference between whats right and wrong....but Maybe i have pushed a friendship away when in all reality I could have let the Lord use me to help bring them closer to him. I know i need to surround myself with God's word, i totally agree on that...but that doesnt mean i can't reach out to those who dont know him yet. If i judge them, then im no different from those who judge us....

2) Being Fake.....I hate acting like everything is hunky dory fine when really inside im just having a bad day. If i want to cry...i should cry! if i feel like dancing around like a craze lunatic....why not just do it? As my son grows i want him to feel like he can be himself.. how am i going to teach him that if i cant do the same thing?

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3) i have no patients. How do i expect others to have patients with me when i can show them the same respect!

As you can see i have done alot of thinking tonight and i feel good about what i came up with and i am excited to act on what i need to change!!!!

God's Whisper

So tonight has been a VERY productive night...we played with Michael, watched ghostbusters (for those who dont know about the movie, its a 80's movie with lots of slime and dan achroid), made chocolate chip cookies All while being on the phone taking care some personal matters involving house issues. Now im not going to go into detail about the issue but i am SOO happy that everything worked out for the best and that God used my dear friend BAM* as a voice. Somehow she decided to go on google today to research some things and that move right there pretty much saved my family from some tough times ahead! Thank you my Bam Bam! love ya!

smells!

Here is a question, What is your favorite smell? Mine is homemade cookies, and sweet tart candles...which i burned tonight! i seriously love candles, if it wasnt a fair hazard they would be burning all day and all night!!! They can transform the feeling in your home with their aroma! Well now that i have shared tidbit for the day its your turn! Ready...Set...GO!

Bitter-sweet!

So let me explain my title...because i have GREAT news but also sad at the same time. The great news is that the Lord blessed my lil family with a new home! We woke up Sunday and decided that "ho hum lets go buy a house today!" Now this is where the bitter part comes to play, This home is also the home of my son's guardians and our best friends. Now if im being honest, i am guilty of hoping that they would stay here instead of taking their great adventure that God has planed for them...but i know that God's will is WAY more powerful than my want, lol go figure!

Now to some other news....

As i was checking my friend's blog i realized that there are some of you who are wondering who i am! Welp, i will try to let you have a better understanding. My Name is Heidi, Im a wife of a wonderful husband and a mommy of a beautiful boy. I LOVE ME SOME STARBUCKS!!! Dance is a must in my life. Feel Good movies are my favorites. Gelato is heavenly. Romantic at heart. I dork it up with the best of them, I crave to be closer to the Lord always and cuddling on the couch with the hub hub watching our shows is the best ending of a hetic day!

I hope that clears up "who is mama-k" for you all:)

Warm Cozies!

As i sit down on the computer a question comes to mind..."what to blog, what to blog?". I sat here thinking through my day and when i was the happiest and this is what i came up with...

Every Thursday night my lil family have superman night with some dear friends. This is a fab tradition which i literally married into because my husband and our friends were going strong LONG before i ever came into the picture lol! Thursday night isn't just to watch some guy zip around saving the day in tights (superman), it is two families coming together in fellowship and love. Tonight was extra special to me. I had just finished a very hard and draining day and the moment i walked into our friends' house i honestly felt immersed with comfort and love. I can honestly sit here and say that i felt all my worries and stress melt. Everything was so inviting...the smell of waffles baking, children playing, and friends laughing....what else could i ask for. People sadly go through life never really having that feeling of acceptance and love. Im lucky, i get to feel it everyday!!! Thank you!

Some more exciting news is that i am leaving for a woman's retreat tomorrow night after work. Please do not ask me where because i can't tell you. No, really, i don't know where it's at. I just signed up and said "whoo hoo"! It's by a lake and that's about all she wrote. Im car pooling with some ladies from church who went last year so i am in good hands! Im just sad that im leaving my husband and son, But God will take care of them while im away playing!

House of Sickies!

Ah tis the season of the flu! I woke up this morning feeling good as new, I thought everyone did until 11Am hit. Michael started to bawl, then throw up, and then the fever hit! poor boy has been miserable ever since! He is now on his 3rd nap which isn't normal for him. BUT on the brighter side..HE IS SEIZURE FREE! I just got the phone call today!! i was in shock for a second than i started to tear up! That's the first time ever that he has had those test results have came back to back!!! i honestly think he is free of it now! That God has lifted the seizures away from him! Only God is able to do that, not doctors, not Andy and I, Just the Lord and i am SOOOO thankful for that!

Soo...

I GOT THE JOB!!!!! i actually had my first day yesterday and it went really well! The employees that i have met are super nice and it was just a good atmosphere to be in! It's such a nice change to have, to actually be excited about going to work!!! Also a cool tidbit, apparently the Gap was chosen to have Matt White come and preform in the store! How cool is that?! For those who don't know who he is, he is an artist who sounds a lot like john Mayer, just with a smidge of Pop. Good stuff!!

Now on the downside...im sick! All last week, the men in my life (my hub and son) were sick and i was doing everything possible not to catch it. But of course my family is the sharing type and around 2am this morning it hit me:( I will be alright, i just need to go to bed early tonight and take some meds and i will be hunky dorey in the morning!

i had lots more to talk about but honestly i forgot what i had to say...my head just hurts and i want to go to bed lol

GOODNIGHT!!!